Once I was a child I looked upon the world as an eyeflash of hope – shatters of stars thrown … More
Tag: meditation
Let Me Show You …
Let me show you, she said. She sat on the bed and opened a shoe box and removed a handful … More
from The Malady of Death
Marguerite Duras says “in heterosexual love there’s no solution. Man and woman are irreconcilable, and it’s the doomed attempt to … More
On Channeling
I tell Caitlin that I “have to channel for a minute,” and begin to write, with a gathering of strange … More
[Update] Lost Notebook is Found
I evidently left it in a break room at work. Maybe people read it, maybe not? There’s something to say … More
Startled Mirror (2016)
Startled Mirror from Paul A Maher Jr & Caitlin Stuart on Vimeo.
On a Lost/Stolen Notebook
In August 2017, I began a new notebook, handwriting in concentrated spates of a few hours at a time, all … More
Even the flowers are fucked into being…
I have started reading D.H. Lawrence, starting with Lady Chatterly’s Lover before turning back to the beginning with The Trespasser, … More
Manifesto #2
1. I will not allow you (society) to enter the sacred church of my mind. You will not penetrate me in ways that are preventable by me.